Happy Baby

I skipped Wednesday practice because I came back home late and had to go to work early. No way out for me.

Last week I was dedicated. And it felt good. This week, I did only Monday and this morning. But this morning's practice was good. A little bit scattered... I noticed my focus and attention weren't really 100% good, at some parts my attention waned, my mind wandered off. It was obvious when I did Garbha Pindasana, the rolls weren't flowing as freely as it often did. My breathing wasn't really ujayyi at certain times. I found myself working through my inner turmoils, letting my mind wander to certain circles of issues I do not allow myself to think about on normal days, normal hours. Right then in the practice they resurfaced. Little things, random things too, popped through my awareness, saying their hellos.

 I enjoyed the practice nevertheless. Would have loved to have a longer Urdhva dhanurasana but it was good enough.

 I have missed doing classes online! Can't wait to get the connection for it.

My Chaturanga 'shoulder's don't even feel sore AT ALL anymore. It's like, why were they ever hurting again?? I feel like the problems of sore shoulder were in a distant past. I do though, still keep an eye on my lowering of the body just so it doesn't dip any lower than it should. I am also trying to make my shoulders move down and away from the ears when I dip. I do not know whether I do that but sometimes I have sore neck and I wonder maybe I've been hunching them involuntarily.

I am grateful for today's practice.

Mastering the mind

Yesterday was really crazy class - crazy but good.

Went for an Ashtanga LED class with a full on tension in my neck from bracing the traffic, thank God the class have yet to start.

We went with Kino, whose short and (sometimes) very fast countings kept my heart rate waaayyy up and nearly gasping for breath. It was beautiful, not much thoughts were given, I was simply going through the motions. At some points ego and cockiness seeped into my heart, especially after a sucessful binding of Mary D, but I tried the hardest to kick them out. For fonishing sequence, instead of doing the modifications like at home, I opted for the invigorating Vaparita Karani until Fish, which I did a modified fish. Tolasana - or Uplutihih - was great as usual.

Then moved on to Yin yoga. A replacement teacher was in and she was pretty loud, quite a contrast with what the class suggests. But her poses were CRAZYYY. we did forward bend which was held for 5 minutes and it was crazy. Painful, good painful. Then the best part - lizard pose. I was struggling with it the whole time. The teacher said something like, "Yin teaches you to master your mind," and I was tyring to control my thoughts but all I got was THIS FUCKING HURTS.

We were encouraged not to use props at all if we could but the point is to relax completely so I of course succumbed to props. I have given up on showing off after the injury. then it was happy baby and the sphinx. Good massages.

Looking forward for today's lovely and quiet yoga. I'm going to still work on the backbends. Slowly.