Ego in yoga hurts you even more.
Tuesday's class - I left the class feeling very serene and calm, a feeling I have yet to achieve when I went to the classes. It's hard to figure out why or what I did that made me come out of the class so relaxed, but I'm thinking maybe it was because I fought hard to focus only on myself, and my breathing, and to not let my ego gets in the way. It did once or twice or thrice, probably because there was a girl in it who was also showing off, and me being 'competitive' I also tried to do it better, longer and stronger. I had to continuously remind myself to stay humble, and focus on myself. I guess it worked because....
I did a full JUMPBACK and JUMPTHROUGH. It happened in an instant - the jumpback. I didn't remember how it felt, didn't even have the time to assess the mechanics of it, and when I did it again it was sketchy at best, but I remember how it felt the first time I got it right. And the jumpthroughs too, it just happened, effortlessly, and without me having to work at it. Of course when I got aware of it and try to remember the movements my feet got stuck through my arms, etc, but at least I knew I got the hang of it.
We did until Bakasana, and I was so happy I went through all and worked out. It was pretty intense, and I think I nearly passed out from the heat inside my body and outside.
But Wednesday morning I ruined it by doing a Sirsasana in the morning, which left me feeling a slight pinch in my neck, and the ache steadily grew into a full blown neck/shoulder pull until right now. I can't move properly and can't turn my neck left and right well. I suspect it IS the Headstand that have been causing - or aggravating - this neck pain. I think I might have compressed my neck vertebrae. All because I push myself to do a Headstand, thinking that if I didn't do it for a while I might have forgotten how.
I am NOT going to do a headstand until I get myself checked. I owe it to myself so much to take care of it and I'm not going to stress how important my neck is. I don't want to turn regret this like I've regretted my knees.
Headstand variations: http://www.yogajournal.com/practice/2768?page=2
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